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I love pain
it makes me happy
psycho yes?
i don't care
i given up on life long ago
now i sulk inside my room
looking for an escape in life

on other days
i sit down in the corner of my room
and cut and cut
till my hearts content
then my eyes bulge
in a violent array
blood is delicious
the best shiet on earth

my parents then come and ruin the fun
they throw this disgrace out the door
i sob in the alleys of dark cold streets
i would have slept in a room
but i have no friends
no one would hang around with me
i have a 4.0 but still they all say
i am the drainage upon society, a shame

well one can tell easily
what can you do with a life
a life thats filled
with a shietload of issues
end it now and who cares
no one will leave my flowers upon my grave
they would spit on it and stomp the dirt
and jingle my coffin until it breaks

so i made up my mind
one more crack
and away i'll leave.
besides as i see it
death itself is not as bad as can be

To be totally honest that was quite disturbing… Have you even seen anyone about this?

I'm just seriously hopeing u didn't write that

Okay, I got a little worried :confused:

Deppressing :(
Death sucks

i tried to kill my self=\ hurt alot…

sadly i failed

Is this a suicide note? Well, don't do it, there's a million things besides death that can make you feel better! DEATH is only for cowards. And you're definetly not a coward, considering the posts on this forum. DON'T DO IT. Your life may be miserable now, but think 10, 20 years ahead - you may be boss of your own company and hire/fire all those asses that made your life miserable now.

Find something that keeps you going (NOT DRUGS / CUTTING), get a goal and set yourself towards it.

That was quite strange…

I always thought that more people would think like me, but it seems like I'm wrong… When we all pass a certain line, however everything would seem normal. Expressionless and emotionless. I can totally imagine myself sitting on a bench while the buildings behind me collapse. I only feel this way sometimes though.

You're obviously not emotionless…

No offense, but I did actually used to think of you as sane…

omg did you write that?

and i understand soem parts of the poem ive felt like that once

Lol, you're alot better than me